Friday with Friends.
In case you haven’t noticed, you’ve been invited into my inner circle.
Small Business Owners offering services to improve your quality of life.
Each Friday, you are meeting someone who adds zest to my life.
This week, I am introducing Julia Speer, an artist. I’ve purchased several items of her work and given them as gifts; she makes art with love.
Please meet Julia!
My kind and generous friend, Linda, asked me months ago if I wanted to write a post for her blog. I was delighted. Although I must admit, I am having trouble seeing myself as a writer. My husband’s a writer. My sister is a writer.
…but me? (crickets chirping)
Did I mention I am writing a book?
Over dinner with my writer husband I expressed my embarrassment and anxiety around coming up with something for Linda’s blog and running out of time.
“I have the art show this weekend, and teaching full time every day, and so much other stuff going on. And besides, what am I going to write about?” to which he replied, “Why don’t you write about that? About wanting to do it all and all that goes with it. You can write 500 words about that.”
My eyes widened. “500 WORDS??! You mean I have to write 500 words???”
He grinned his knowing writer’s grin at me. “Yes, Baybee. A blog post is typically 500 words.” Shit. 500 words sounded like so much to me. How was I going to do that?
I wonder if all this internal doubt and struggle has anything to do with why I am so late in responding to Linda’s request. I don’t need my buddy Carl to figure that one out. What is also true is that there are so very many things I have my hands in right now. I am what I refer to as a Creative. I use that word because it is broad, and my creative energy expresses in a myriad of ways. I am a visual artist. My favorite medium is clay, but I also create jewelry.
I paint, I work in mixed media assemblage, and any other kind of visual art that calls me (and there are many). I am also a public school teacher full time. I teach elementary art in Cobb County, and work a second job with the county doing art club with the After School Program.
I also facilitate women’s Soul Work through sacred circle, workshops, and my most favorite; weekend retreats. On these retreats we explore the Wild Woman Archetype and the many contemporary issues for women of our time. Last but not least I am writing my first book! Holy Cow! All this uses much energy and focus. How, how, how do I choose? And more importantly, do I have to choose? Can’t I just do them all?
This is not a new question. Volumes are written about following your bliss and the money will come, etc. (sigh). The days where a person works a 9 to 5 job for thirty years are gone. Still… I don’t know. Giving up my “regular” job to do all those things I love and feel passionate about seems an awfully flimsy limb to be standing out on if you ask me. What about bills, and groceries, and house payments, and health care? How do I provide for and take good care of myself and my loved ones without ending up on my death bed saying, “I wish I had…”?
(Holy Shit. I just looked down at the bottom of this document. I’m already at 534 words. I’d better wrap this sucker up!)
Long story short, I’m not going to choose. My mom’s death last year, my dear girlfriend losing her battle with cancer, these remind me of a Mary Oliver quote:
“Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?”
I don’t have the answer to how to make it all work. I don’t have the answer to what is the best way to take care of myself financially. What I do know like I know like I know is this:
Life is worth living when I am living it. Actively. For me that means living my passion, or passions, as it were. So for now, I continue to create in all the ways I love, all the ways that feed and excite my soul. The alternative is unthinkable.
I hope you enjoyed meeting Julia.
You can connect with Julia at these places:
Website: Julia Speer, Ceramic Sculptor
Follow your passion!